I’m realistic and narcissistic,
You say I’m selfish and absurd
You try to change me, you try to save me
You say I’m gonna learn, I’m so blind,
I’m out of time, You’re so unkind sometimes,
I never lied, I never lied, I never lied
Cuz I never said that everything would be ok,
and I never said that we would live to see another day

This is a really awesome Good Charlotte song. I’ve been listening it to it a lot lately to attempt to keep me modivated. I should be studying for my Bookkeeping test tomorrow, making a training plan for my Capstone, and trying to stay awake to wait for my client to call me to confirm our meeting tomorrow. AT 10PM!

So I’m typing to stay awake. It’s kind of like detention after school and the teacher makes you write a phrase on the board over and over again to punish you. Well, if I fall asleep and don’t take my client’s call, I’m going to be even more behind on my project than I already am. This is my punishment.

I WILL NOT FALL ASLEEP UNTIL MY CLIENT CALLS.
I WILL NOT FALL ASLEEP UNTIL MY CLIENT CALLS.
I WILL NOT FALL ASLEEP UNTIL MY CLIENT CALLS.

I WILL NOT FALL ASLEEP UNTIL I STUDY FOR MY BOOKKEEPING MIDTERM.
I WILL NOT FALL ASLEEP UNTIL I STUDY FOR MY BOOKKEEPING MIDTERM.
I WILL NOT FALL ASLEEP UNTIL I STUDY FOR MY BOOKKEEPING MIDTERM.

OK, so I don’t think it’s working too much because the Copy/Paste button is my friend and I’m not really typing it.

I walked into my Capstone class with all the unmodivation in the world. I proclaimed to my teacher that I wasn’t sure if I was meant to do webdesign anymore. I almost feel like I resent it now, and everything that has to do with computers. All the pressure of this project is taking away all my passion and creativity I used to have for making websites and thirsting for knowledge on how a computer really worked. When I get home from school, I don’t even want to stare at my computer anymore. [Unless I'm having this situation I'm having now trying to stay awake.] But I got an hour pep talk from my teacher and he honestly started talking about something too philosophical for me to understand and it didn’t really help. I know at this point I’m not going to quit school, but these last 7 weeks are going to go by slow and in a torchourous way.

After all the pep talks/coaching/arguing going on in class Janelle and I decided we needed to be treated to some good food. We ventured off to Wendy’s and I got a Ceasear Chicken Salad and Frescatta sandwich. Janelle treated me to a frosty, which made me extra happy and also made me feel better that someone at school at least still understood my frustrations with this project from hell. Hopefully we can keep each other modivated until graduation.

I have been archiving my super old blog entries from back in 2001. This is pre-Blogger & pre-WordPress era. This was before I even dabbled in CSS to discover the wonders of it. I really didn’t have much of an exciting life back then, but it’s always fun to reminisce on how much of a nerd I really was.

I also found a lot of old digital camera pictures from when I first got my puppy, Cinnamon that I thought had been lost with the “The Great Computer Crash of 2002” So cute to see how little she was when she was a puppy and how she used to love sleeping by my side. She’s not allowed to do that anymore, my parents trained her to stay off the teak furniture now. Now, I just sleep with my teddy bear of a boyfriend.

Leave me a comment and let me know what you think of my new layout. I still need to make my own personal layout & color changes to the pre-made CSS layout, but so far I like it. The current banner picture is my boyfriend’s daughter making bubbles in the park. HOW CUTE!

On This Day...

• Photos - 2008